There is a lot of life that has happened between these two girls. Let me start by introducing you to the girl on the left. This was me at 27 years old. I was a volunteer at my boys’ school in Katy, Texas. I was known as the Popcorn Lady and they captured this picture of me to print in the 1997-1998 Golbow Elementary school yearbook for all to see forever and ever. They probably had no idea that this photo would forever represent my “before” picture. I have very few pictures of myself during this time of my life. For one, we just didn’t have the same technology back then as we do now. But let’s face it, even if there were iPhones, I would have found a way to hide behind something.
It was shortly after this picture was taken that I fearfully walked into a Weight Watcher’s location and started my weight loss journey. I honestly wasn’t sure what I weighed so I was super nervous to get on the scale. I stood in line and watched as the people before me took their turn weighing in. One lady stripped down to her bathing suit and I was secretly wishing I had worn something more light weight. When I stood on the scale the digital number beeped and there it was. The number I had been avoiding for several years was staring right at me. 304 pounds. How did this happen? I have struggled with my weight my whole life but this was definitely the highest I had ever been.
Now let me introduce you to the girl on the right. This is 50-year-old me. This is a girl who has been on quite the journey over the past 23 years. I can proudly say that I have never seen 304 pounds again. I can also say that my scale constantly goes up and down. I have reached my goal weight and I have gained upwards of 50 pounds.
This year I found myself on my 50th birthday being up in my weight again. I can blame it on Covid and being quarantined but truly I would just be making another excuse. I tend to justify why my weight fluctuates so much. My go to excuse is usually, “God just made this way” or “I have the worst metabolism in the whole world”.
So here I was again signing up for Weight Watchers. My birthday is at the end of June but of course I had to wait until after the 4th of July to sign up. I wouldn’t want to miss out on some good holiday food. But this time I wanted my journey to be different. I wanted to lose the weight but I also wanted to figure out why I keep doing this to myself. Why do I quit? Why do I gain again? What is wrong with me? Why after 23 years (or technically my whole life) can’t I figure this out?
I’m sharing this with you today because I know so many struggle with these same issues. We find ourselves in January making New Year’s resolutions. We are committed to losing the weight for good this time. If this is you, know that I see you, I understand you and I am here for you. I want to share with you all that I have learned this past year. I want to give you encouragement and hope. What I have learned has been so profound to me and I want to share that knowledge with you in hopes that your life will be as radically changed as mine has.
Stay tuned for more posts throughout the next several weeks as I continue to share my story.